My moods have been all over the place this last week or two, changing from day to day and from hour to hour. At present on a scale of 1 to 10, where 10 is very happy and 1 is downright miserable, I'd put myself at a 4; so bear that in mind as you read this post! There are many possible causes for the lows - my completely changed circumstances since last November when hubby died, the constant rain we've had over the last 3 weeks, tiredness etc.
Doctor is investigating the tiredness; we suspect sleep apnoea, probably caused by sinus problems. She's also told me to lose weight. I bought some new bathroom scales the other day but they're obviously defective as they say I'm a whopping 13 stone 13 pounds!!! That's the heaviest I've ever been and, at a height of 5 feet 1 inch, I certainly don't want to be any heavier. I've made an effort to increase my exercise regime, and have been going to classes two to three times a week and, to my surprise, I'm really enjoying it. I'm also getting my bike repaired and I like to walk when I can. BUT I really, really don't want to change my eating habits. I know where I'm going wrong - snacking in the evening. When I stop to ask myself why I'm doing it I realise it's comfort eating because low moods usually hit me after sunset, and because I'm tired. How silly to compensate for tiredness by eating chocolate or biscuits! Surely the way to help with tiredness is to have a nap?!
Anyway, to try to help myself keep track of what's going on I've devised this sheet:
Hope you can see it alright...
Perhaps after a week or so I'll be able to see some trends to help me set achievable goals.
And maybe, after I've had a nice hot bath, my mood level will go up to an 7 - or even more if the sun comes out!